expose: self-help is bs, and unproductivity blows.

I'm finding it hard to take the self-help advice offered everywhere--in books, advice columns, magazines..."10 Ways To Boost Your Confidence!" and then it lists 10 facts that you already knew. Meet people that make you comfortable. Just smile and say hi. Tell yourself you look beautiful in the mirror, and you'll start to truly believe it. Uh, no shit. But it's because I can't do any of those things that I'm reading your stupid article anyway, Cosmopolitan or Seventeen or whatever magazine or book is telling me this bullshit. It's a paradox, an oxymoron (what's the difference among all those words anyway?). If I actually could boost my confidence, then I wouldn't have to read any self-help book. And if I'm reading your list, then it's pretty hard to boost anything anyway, since I need some 2-page article to "change my life." There's no in-between, no saving grace, no hope. You basically learn to suck it up and change, or you just go along in your normal processes, whining about how much you lack self-esteem.

Speaking about finding it hard to do things, I'm finding it extremely hard to focus and actually care about school with my countdown: two days until winter break! Seven days until Christmas! And thirteen days until 2008! But before all those milestones of life, I have to get through petty FRQs and quizzes here and "first-person sources required" on first drafts there. You know, I think I've been bitten with senioritis (Word just red-underlined this word...God knows that Word needs to "learn spelling", considering how many times I'm going to use it in the next year) a little too early. I probably got it last year, in fact, when I just decided to stop caring. Go with the flow. If I didn't read the chapter for history, just don't bother ever doing it. I'll put it off, continually, constantly, until finals come around, I cram and pull all-nighters (or as close to an all-nighter as you can get), and ace that shit and make the 89.5%. Works 99% of the time. Actually I'm bound to crash, sooner or later (again), but until then I'll continue with my poor, unproductive study habits.

There's more on my mind, but then again, there always is...peace out.