life is a maze and love is a riddle.

I have simply been too busy to write in here, but more and more I've been bemoaning the lack of an update, since I have many things to tackle. Like, how much I detest that people don't seem to listen to my music recommendations. I know it's such a trivial issue but I don't know how many times I'm driven insane when I introduce someone to a band or musician and they half-heartedly listen to it, but then some other, more forceful (I guess) person pimps the same band out, and suddenly everyone loves it. It infuriates me so much that my opinion is shoved aside until someone who is simply louder and more obnoxious likes a song, and suddenly it's everywhere. But then again, I guess that's what publicity is all about. I realize it's kind of ridiculous to freak out over this little thing...but whatever.

Gradual loss of friends could possibly be the worst way to go. At least when you separate because of some big drama issue, it's curable if both parties just forgive each other. But a gradual change, that's near impossible to fix. And I wish so much that it wasn't happening to me, for the most trivial reasons, but it's something out of my reach and inevitable anyway. To just sit back and watch it happen is painful, but what else can I do?

I think for this entry particularly, I'm using this as a forum to tell certain people certain things (because God knows, this isn't great writing...at all). And I wish people would know that I hate drama, and that I overthink things and never get over anything until it actually is solved, and problems can't just "go away" for me. And I wish certain people would know how much everything is hurting me, and how I somewhat resent how different this year is becoming, and how much I just want last year back. But time is time.